If I Were to Die

There is something interesting about thinking about death; it makes you understand what you care about the most, what you will regret losing, and whom you will miss not seeing anymore. What if I were to die?

If I were to die tomorrow, I would tell my mother how much I love her. I would thank her for the delicious meals she cooked, and the nights she took care of me when I was sick. I would tell her she is the best friend that I have ever had, and if I were to choose my mother, I would choose her all over again. I would tell my father that he is the one who taught me discipline and strength. He is the one who showed me how to handle setbacks, and gave me everything I needed without any complains. He is the one whom I admired the most.

If I were to die tomorrow, I would tell my brothers that even though we didn't get to live with each other in the same house for a long time, I still consider them as the best brothers anyone could wish to have, any they are the ones whom I always looked up to.

If I were to die tomorrow, I would visit my old grandmother, and listen to the tales of the old times. I would kiss her hands, run my fingers through her soft hair and tell her how much I would miss her kind smiles.

If I were to die tomorrow, I would pay a visit to my best friend and talk about all the good and bad times we had together. I would tell her that she is the one who gave meaning to my life when it had lost its meaning to me.

If I were to die tomorrow, I would spend some quality time with my nephews. I would play soccer with them and we would eat delicious ice-creams together. I would spend some time with my lovely niece and tell her that even though I never had the courage to say it, I love her as if she were my own sister.

If I were to die tomorrow, I would spend some time with my old classmates with whom I spent seven years. I would tell them they are the ones whom I will miss the most, and I would ask them to go to a restaurant together for one last time. Hopefully, the owner wouldn't throw us out this time.

If I were to die tomorrow, I would visit my roommates and tell them they are the ones from whom I learnt tolerance, co-existence and cooking to some extent.

If I were to die tomorrow, I would thank all of the people who thought me how to think and grow as a person. I would thank all the people who inspired me and helped me achieve my dreams.

If I were to die tomorrow, I would go to our cherry garden, the place in which I have wonderful memories. I would sit on the wooden benches under the green branches of the tall trees and remember all the good times I had with my family. I would play a last game of chess with my brother and eat a plate full of red cherries. I would play badminton with my niece and walk down to the dried river with my mother. I would watch the Matrix and listen to the Black album. I would spend the night under the clear sky and enjoy the silence for the last time, and then I am sure I would die in peace.

And I always wonder why I cannot do all those things now.